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flowers (prod. planes)
03:25
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i walk through fields of flowers but their colors get too loud
and the grass under me starts stinging and biting
while the bugs in the air fill my head with sounds
i walk through fields of flowers
but my eyes will just stay closed
cus i feel if i open them, i’ll just get knocked over
as soon as the warm, unforgiving wind blows
i should be happy
i should be fine
i should look out at this field and feel like
all of it's mine
but i’m just overwhelmed by the colors
the beauty around me
feel like i’m losing the same people that found me
laying in the dirt so long ago
i’m in a better place so WHY AM I STILL EMO????
i’ve never been allergic to flowers
but i’m sneezing up a storm
and i was never afraid of bumblebees
until they started to swarm
as i walked through fields of flowers
staring at my feet
feeling like i’m ruining the days of everyone i meet
cus i should be happy
i should be fine
i should look out at this field and feel like
all of it’s mine
but i’m just overwhelmed
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dream girl
02:52
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met this girl in the astral plane
didn’t get her number, didn’t catch her name
but i don’t know how i lived my life before her
my literal dream girl, i fell in love
she told me to meet her when i wake up
so now i spend my daytimes looking for her
and when i go to bed
she’s living rent-free in my head
shes my astral plane girl
i see her when i sleep
when i wake up i describe her in a journal that i keep
quit caffeine just to see her again
don’t wake me while i’m sleeping, i don’t want our dates to end
10 milligrams of melatonin
sleeping pills, tonight i’m hoping
to see her face and hold her hand again
want her to come visit me
anywhere besides my sheets
my pillow princess who i only see in bed
lost in my imagination
prefer sleep to when i’m waking
shes my astral plane girl
i see her when i sleep
when i wake up i describe her in a journal that i keep
quit caffeine just to see her again
don’t wake me while i’m sleeping, i don’t want our dates to end
queen of my dream world
she’s my literal dream girl
always there to turn my nightmares nice
queen of my dream world
she’s my literal dream girl
if i knew her in real life i’d make her mine
queen of my dream world
she’s my literal dream girl
always there to turn my nightmares nice
queen of my dream world
she’s my literal dream girl
if i knew her in real life i’d make her mine
shes my astral plane girl
i see her when i sleep
when i wake up i describe her in a journal that i keep
quit caffeine just to see her again
don’t wake me while i’m sleeping, i don’t want our dates to end
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shadow man
02:27
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sometimes, late at night when i’m alone
the shadows make a house feel like a home
i cant really say i’m isolated in my room
when silhouettes are moving in the corners of my view
oh, figure in peripheral sight
that only ever visits me at night
can i call you my friend
if i’ve never heard a word you’ve said
i’ve never quite seen your face
but i feel ur eyes at the back of my head
stay a millisecond longer
shadow man
you’re the only one that sees me
my only friend
i blink and then you’re gone from the corner of my eye
but your temporary presence makes me feel alive
always there to listen when i vent
finding therapists in all my shadow men
theres a bright side to my constant sleep deprivation
the friendship that comes out of dark, empty spaces
figure in peripheral sight
that's always there to make me feel alright
can i call you my friend
if i’ve never heard a word you’ve said
i’ve never quite seen your face
but i feel ur eyes at the back of my head
stay a millisecond longer
shadow man
you’re the only one that sees me
my only friend
i blink and then you’re gone from the corner of my eye
but your temporary presence makes me feel alive
you don't have a face or a name
but i'll be ur friend and love u the same
the shadow man will always be there
when i feel like nobody else cares
stay a millisecond longer
shadow man
you’re the only one that sees me
my only friend
i blink and then you’re gone from the corner of my eye
but your temporary presence makes me feel alive
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4. |
(crying on my) birthday
02:50
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i’ve been waiting here for hours
where’s my cake and flowers
i’m scrolling through my phone looking for birthday messages
feel pretty forgotten
but i feel that pretty often
you think my phone’ll blow up if i keep refreshing it?
i’m crying on my birthday
i don’t feel like cutting cake
every year, no day is lonelier
than when i’m reminded that i’m the only one
there on my birthday
no fair, it’s my birthday
i don’t need no presents, either
just want someone present here
there on my birthday
but no one cares it’s my birthday
never been the type to throw a party
never been too sure that anyone would come
all my best friends have better friends
they get on well without me
if they came to my party, i would just look dumb
so i’m alone on my birthday
at least i don’t have to dress up
every year, no day is lonelier
than when i’m reminded that i’m the only one
there on my birthday
no fair, it’s my birthday
i don’t need no presents, either
just want someone present here
there on my birthday
but no one cares it’s my birthday
as my candles get blown out
i wish for less self-doubt
a friend or two, just somebody here
to come to my birthday party next year
every year, no day is lonelier
than when i’m reminded that i’m the only one
there on my birthday
no fair, it’s my birthday
i don’t need no presents, either
just want someone present here
there on my birthday
but no one cares it’s my birthday
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5. |
some gay shit like that
02:36
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i wanna fall asleep under stars with you
do you see them in the same way that i do?
thunder and lightning outside my windows
reminds me of you every time that the wind blows
my shutters will shudder the way that your body does, too
i want your legs entangled in mine
or some gay shit like that
i wanna hold your hand on a park bench
i wanna see your eyes in the sunset
can we just bask in the colors and leave earth behind
be in my arms from night until daytime
or we can just drive and we’ll count all the street signs
or you could run away with me
or some gay shit like that
you could be mine and i could be yours
or some other label, if you prefer
i don’t want to scare you away
with all of the love songs i tend to play
but would you wanna live in a cottage and adopt 7 cats
or maybe just kiss or some gay shit like that
anything is fine
as long as it’s with you
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your only baby is a bottle
peppermint schnapps in the trash can when you were near me
a sad excuse for a father
six months, no calls
if we talk, do you even hear me?
broken homes, broken promises
are you scared of me just like mama says?
how can someone nonexistent hurt you so bad?
what about all the time lost?
the trips you said we’d have?
putting anything and everything you have above me
ohHhhHhhh wHyyHyhHhhhyyYyYy
darth vader, why won’t you love me?
sometimes i talk to your girlfriend
she says things are fine
you’ve got a new house, how’s that been?
dropped off the face of the earth again
i thought we were fine
what happened?
you really shouldn’t be the first man to break your daughter’s heart
did i push you away from me?
why've we grown apart?
how can someone nonexistent hurt you so bad?
what about all the time lost?
the trips you said we’d have?
putting anything and everything you have above me
ohHhhHhhh wHyyHyhHhhhyyYyYy
darth vader, why won’t you love me?
would i still be the same person i am now
if my darth vader had cared to stick around?
i’ve barely even seen your face so why’s it hurt so bad
to know you’ll never make good on the trips you said we’d have
it didn’t take much time for you to get so tired of me
ohHhhHh whYyYyyYyyYyYyYy
darth vader, why won't you love me?
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7. |
barbed wire/holy land
02:50
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when i was 12 years old in catholic school,
i learned life wasn’t fair
got called into the principal’s,
completely unprepared to talk about
rumors that were going around
got asked if i could tone it down
and be a better role model for all the younger kids
but i thought my sexuality was already well-hid
so if u tell me i’m going to hell i’ll say that i’m already here
cus i’d rather chill with satan
than be catholic and queer/than keep living life in fear
feeling like the world’s against u
for the people u want pressed against u
hurts more than anyone can understand
since when is there barbed wire around the holy land?
so i started quoting bible verses
lost myself in shallow worship
turned against the love that i was trying to keep down
when everything i was scared to be
got shown off right in front of me
i couldn’t help but act as if they shouldn't have been proud
so if u tell me i’m going to hell i’ll say that i’m already here
cus i’d rather chill with satan
than be catholic and queer/than keep living life in fear
feeling like the world’s against u
for the people u want pressed against u
hurts more than anyone can understand
since when is there barbed wire around the holy land?
so go ahead, call me sacriligious
cus i no longer choose to listen
to anything that tells me that the way i am is wrong
ive done my time and served my sentence
of self hatred and blind repentance
and if you have a problem you can take it up with god
so if u tell me i’m going to hell i’ll say that i’m already here
cus i’d rather chill with satan
than keep living life in fear
feeling like the world’s against u
for the people u want pressed against u
hurts more than anyone can understand
since when is there barbed wire around the holy land?
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